Ankahi baaten

 Kabhi kabhi sabse bada journey kisi aur tak pahunchne ka nahi, balki khud tak wapas aane ka hota hai. Aur yeh journey loud nahi hoti - yeh dheere dheere hoti hai, bina kisi announcement ke, bina kisi perfect moment ke. Main hamesha se thodi alag rahi hoon apne thoughts ke case mein. Main cheezein deeply feel karti hoon, unhe analyze karti hoon, aur phir unhe apne andar hi store kar leti hoon. Bahar se shayad simple lagta hai sab, par andar ka process kaafi intense hota hai. Aur shayad isi wajah se meri life ke kuch experiences ne mujhe bahut quietly change kiya. Love life ho ya normal connections - maine hamesha cheezo ko real rakhne ki koshish ki. Main fake efforts ya half-hearted intentions mein believe nahi karti. Agar main kisi ko importance deti hoon, toh woh genuine hota hai. Par yahin ek chhoti si mistake bhi ho jaati thi. Main kabhi kabhi apni hi importance thodi kam kar deti thi. Not because I didn’t value myself, par because main zyada focus kar leti thi “us connection k...

Kabhi kabhi life itni fast chal rahi hoti hai na, ki hume samajh hi nahi aata ki hum actually feel kya kar rahe hain. Bas din nikalte jaate hain, reels scroll hoti rehti hain, aur andar kuch chhota sa part humara chup ho jaata hai. Mere saath bhi kuch aisa hi hua. Main hamesha se expressive type ki rahi hoon — ya shayad mujhe lagta tha ki main hoon. But sach yeh hai ki jab real moment aaya, jab mujhe apni side explain karni thi, jab mujhe kisi important insaan ko batana tha ki main kya feel kar rahi hoon… main chup ho gayi. Aur wahi silence sabse zyada loud ho gaya. Kabhi socha hai? Ek chhoti si misunderstanding kitni badi distance create kar sakti hai. Ek “tum samajh nahi rahe ho” aur ek “tum batate kyun nahi” ke beech mein poori kahaani kho jaati hai. Mere saath bhi wahi hua. Main kehna chahti thi, bohot kuch. Har wo baat jo mere dimaag mein clear thi, par jab bolne ka time aaya… words hi nahi mile. Aur phir ek din realize hua — log humari intentions nahi dekhte, wo sirf actions dekh...